Rabu, 28 Juni 2017

Maya being Maya

Heloo... (i even dont know who i greet, haha)

My last post was in 2016, and the post talked about 2015.
Then, here I am in the middle of 2017 and having a hard time to write again, but let me try :")

I graduated from State University of Jakarta, majoring in Accounting, and proudly say with God's Grace i achieved this with Cumlaude. Soli Deo Gloria!
I thought the journey to graduate was easy, but then one week before i submit my under graduate thesis, i got into hospital for days because of mosquito, yes, dengue fever.
The recovery process was slow because I have no spirit, passion, or desire that time because I already portray in my mind, I will graduate on May, several days after my birthday.
I learned again how to lean on God in the hardest time, soo with the big help from my PangBers (Panggabean Bersaudara - my family) esp my big sis who help me with stata things, and all bestfriends, finally I graduated on 28 June 2016. (the same day as I write this today, ehm, my big sis remind me today :p)

I always love gifts! 

Call me the drama one, but I really hope many people come to my final defense , and my dreams come true!!!

21 Family : daniel, acit, sinta, vera, belinda, putri
Non Reg B Akuntansi 2012
!too much loved I felt that day!

Yudisium FE 2016

The day of Graduation
Yeay, anak bontot akhirnya ada juga foto wisuda di lemari :")

So enough with graduated euphoria.
One week after I pass my final defense, i was like the happiest human being in world, then after 2 weeks, I start to realize... "so what will I do now?"
Job seeker start.
For everyone who had through the job-seeker-time surely can related with all this story.
And every experience that made me stressed and too drama before, become funny now.

My first experience was I do the psychotest then result came 30 minutes after I finish the test. And yeah, I didnt pass that. Fyi, psychotest was the first step.
When i see there were no my name on the list who pass first step, i start to moonwalk a.k.a jalan mundur and going outside the building and met my daddy who eating while waiting for me. Even my dady have not finished his food! hahahaha.
Then i joined Bank Indonesia test too and didn't pass in 3rd step. I know I didn't put my hope too much in this, I'm just seeking for experience.
Oh, another experience, one of the biggest fasion retail in Indonesia already approved me and I just need to sign the contract, anddddd *drum roll* they called me then said the supervisor met another candidates.
Not only that, they still called me to do another test on different supervisor then I realized now, supaya ga keliatan tega2 amat kali ya, sok2 disuruh test lagi :p I appreciate it.
Tapi begini deh bu, pak, saya kurang terimanya. Kalau udah saya yang diterima, ya udah kan, berarti ga usah cari kandidat lain. Lah ini kalian masih lanjut interview orang lain  padahal sudah minta saya kirim semua berkas saya dan tentukan tanggal teken kontrak.
Frankly speaking, after that experience i didn't want to see anything related with the company, you can asked my friends, i almost kick every banner related with that company when i went to Mall.
Sekarang sih udah biasa saja, namanya juga job-seeker penuh pengharapan dulu kan, lumayan udah ada pengalaman di PHP-in. Sekalian belajar, kalau belum teken kontrak jangan cerita2 dulu, malu juga hahahaha.

Soo, while im waiting and struggle to get the job, I become an Wedding Organizer for my sister.
I was doing everything they need and get paid! Hahahaha. Buat jajan kata mereka soale ga dapet2 kerja.
Too much memory for preparing the Batak mix Jawa wedding, and I will tell the story on another post. The special post to tell all the funny things, preparation, and all the drama. Maybe that will help several people in the future ;). For now, let me share the photo of one of the biggest day in my sister's life :

Adat Jawa

Adat Batak. Okeh yang di kepala Maya miring begitu emang, kebanyakan joget kali Maya.
Welcome to the family, Bang Robert!!

PangBers United

Then what work do I do now?
 Junior Auditor.
My parent said to watch our word , dan emang bener ya, dulu kalau temen ngomongin audit bosen banget dengerinnya, kayak pengen bilang, "helooo, apa sih serunya?"
Eh, sekarang malah masuk dunianya beneran.
The struggle to get this job is full of drama too. I passed written test and FGD, then got interview by my manager and long story short, they invited me to sign the contract on 1 November. On that day I arrived at the office then met HRD, but sadly I go home without signing the contract because they want me to start work asap whereas I still preparing my sister wedding. They give me a good understanding, if I join them asap, I still need to take a break on the day of my sister wedding, and it will, ya kali baru masuk masa udah izin2, singkat ceritanya. And I accept it.

So, I didn't put my hope even a little for this job.
Tapi namanya blessing, berkat ga kemana.
After my sis wedding, batak wedding, in the evening, (let me add, after all the hectic thing), they messaged me and ask the available time for me to join and sign the contract :D
God is good all the time, again!
I never thought being an junior auditor will giving me many life experiences even I only worked for 6 months.
Team-work, learning everything that surely so different from college-life, professional work, overtime, experience a duty-trip, deadline etc are so related with auditing.

Me, the forever-love-home, assigned to my first duty trip and that was so far away for me : Banda Aceh!!
First I thought, how can I get through this? I loved travelling, but that was the first time without fam.
Then I challenge myself, and theeen... Let me share on another post for Banda Aceh trip :)
For now, I'm excited to see where will I go next :p

Thats the highlight of my 2016-middle 2017.
Let me close with C.S. Lewis quote (on eof my fav writer all the time) :

Relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing had yet been done.

Sabtu, 02 Januari 2016

Look back to 2015, PMK?

Happy New Year 2016! 

I'm entering 2016 with a grateful heart to the Lord. My family still do "mandok hata" time as a full team this year and we look back to 2015 and see how great is our God :D one of them is my sister finished her study and back from UK in August 2015. 

But, for this post i wanna share something important in my 2015, beside Panggabean Bersaudara.
This is tengterereng terereng reng reng : 
Persekutuan Mahasiswa Kristen (PMK) or Christian Student Organization. But let me call PMK for the rest of this post.

In 2015 i took part as a Faculty of Economics Coordinator and work with 2 working team : Ernes and Merlin. Before being a coordinator, from 2013-2014 I work as a working team with : bang anwar and Putri, and my coordinator that time is bang Anes.

First, being a coordinator is never be an easy work to do. Even I already had an experience as a leader in jhs and shs time, this is really not easy. 
After entered UNJ, I thought to my self not to join any service or work in PMK. I just want to join small group. But, (wkwk), I'm already serving in this campus for 2,5 years. Almost 3 years, from 2013-2015. Thats God's grace, I realize now. Who am I?

Let me give thank you to my 2 sister : Merlin and Ernes. They such a great younger sister. ( I never called them as a junior, I called them "adek pmk")

At first I found it really hard to teach them because they do not know anything. They often said "Oke kak, I understand" and then do something different. We had a meeting once a week, and at first I thought I am the only one that understand and talking-until-berbusa because they only give me the not-fully-understand-but-understand face. I remind their jobdesc everyday, I met them one by one to teach them.

Then I found it really funny now. This time they 70% understand everything and we already connect to each other. This time I sometimes said "Wahahaha, udh gede lo" because they said something that so wise :p

Before that bang Anes said to me, "You fully understand all the job after being a coordinator.. So teach your working team patiently, like I did to you before. Same as being a small group leader too"
So, same with bang Anes encouraged me that time, I want to encourage you too, Lin Nes..
Whatever part of service you do this year, teach everyone you work with in patiently. You never know everything so listen to another mind too. 
Be a humble servant. 
This year will be your happy year.
You know, happy not means laugh and smile all the time. But happy means you depend on God in everything, so you can said "God is good". I really mean this, 2015 is my happy year and one of the reason because this work.
Remember dek, give 100% for everything. I never agree you not study well because you are too busy. I'm struggling to do that too, being a good example, so everyone who see my life, see the beauty of God.

I spent a lot my 2015 with all PMK member hahaha. I rarely hang out. I rarely go home early.
Thats not me being busy, but being a PTK(Pengurus dan Tim Kerja) means you willingly give your time. 
All the ptk know about this hahaha.
So, again, Nes&Lin.. (why this post is like a letter:p) there will be a time that you tired and anyone hard to understand you, and you got misunderstood by others even you already give almost your time in PMK, just keep calm. You only need to talk and have a quality time with God and you feel better.
And dont forget your social life beside PMK, remember being a light in everywhere. (Again. I'm struggling to do that too :) )

Second time I said, being a coordinator is never been easy.

But I have a great supporter. PTK FE dari jaman ke jaman...
I will not forget the time we went to Kebun raya Bogor, too much secret we revealed at that time, what a fun trip wkwkw.
And I look forward to this Sunday, PTK FE will have a mini gathering :p

Beside PTK FE, i have a couple of random people too. Another Faculty Coordinator 2015!!
We become one in an absurd way. We smile and laughed and do the not-so-normal-thing in front of our faculty. But when we gather, we talked seriously for like hours to achive something better.
Just kidding, not all the time. First 1 hour we took photo, buy snacks, bickering and choose the place for meeting.
This random people always be in my top list. Putri as the Mamak Kabid, she try to understand every people and getting more wise everyday. My long-time-partner.
Yenita as the anti-mainstream and in 2015 the one that try hard not to baper in everything. She often being locked in home at some important event, because her parent left to market and she still sleeping.
Sontaria as the girl-surrounded-by-FT-boy and did a good job on that. She did a really good job on that.
Febrian as the most athletic one and the most-missing-person-in-whatsapp group. But when we see him, he plays a COC on his handphone. I up to the point that want to threw his handphone from second floor of Gedung G. But I impressed by his endurance with his faculty.
Chrisna as the "Babe" of other girl-faculty-coordinator. He often said something randomly, and happy-to-make-conversation-longer. He the most rempong in our group. But his sociality is great.
Rena as the most creative-one. She good for making thing  cheap and useful then share it to us.
Sadly, another faculty coordinator have a-really-bad-sense-of-art. She is the quite and calm one :)
Lia as the most cheerful one eventhough we often make fun of her. Her beauty and smile already famous in PMK ;)

And in this post I wanna say thank you too, for 5-leader, Hotben, Ramos, Desi, Febri, and Putri. Badan Pengurus Harian 2015.
In my opinion, they try hard to lead us. Thats all their first time and I impressed by that.
I never said this to all of you, but I learned many things. You show us how to being happy-all-the time, how to be humble and hear our opinion, and being-selalu-ada di 2015 :p

And of course all the PTK member, I learned a lot this year from all of you.
And let me add : Thomas and Hilda, my dear 2 younger brosis. Keep healthy and happy both of you.
(Loh kok kayak baru jadian :p)

I finished my post with a thankful heart that I spent my 2015 with all of you.
Lets continue our relation that talking-about-random-thing though in several week we not a PTK anymore.
Let me said my favorite quote from you-know-who again wkwkw
"Teman itu datang bukan karena ada hal penting yang harus diomongin, tapi teman itu datang karena kita penting buat dia"

Have a great 2016, my favorite people :)

24 May 2015. Even this year I spent my birthday with them!

Rabu, 29 Juli 2015

My Scoliosis is Beautiful

Huahahaha after more than one year finally I try to write something in my blog again.. and I still using English to improve my ability, so sorry for the mistakes.

The last time I post my story is about Arsenal, and now I want to share about my scoliosis. Yes, scoliosis. You don’t know about that? Please, use google :p
If you have a straight backbone, I’m different, I have a “S” backbone. Let me show you my x-ray.

Do not be too surprised, let me tell  my story.

I already knew that I have scoliosis in junior high school time. It started when my mom asked me “Maya,why you not walk straight? Its not good” Then I answered, “this is straight mom”. Then my mom realized, my backbone is what is it called, hmm, my backbone on the right side is sticking out.
So, for every scoliosis fighter out there, I really know how it feels when someone told us to “walk straight!” or “please balance your shoulder”. Like, please? We have scoliosis, is hard to balance our body. We think we already walk straight, but people who see us still see we walk in an ‘unbalanced way’.

Then me and my family go to orthopedist and the doctor told us that I have a scoliosis in 36 degree and give advice that I must take a surgery. I’m just 14 years old that time and hearing that is like, “what should I do now”. In that day I’m just crying. Remember that day still made me cry now, a little.. hehehe
My family decided not to take surgery and find another solution, so my aunty gave advice to take some exercise in a hospital. After that my posture got better and I stop because I’m already busy about entering senior high school.

In senior high school time, I always use uniform that bigger than usual so my backbone not sticking out. Some of my friends asked my unbalanced walk or my backbone that sticking out but I try to hide that and just say “This is genetic.. hehehe” and try to change the topics.

Then in college year, in my second year, in the time that my grade was so good, I join working team and serving in Christian organization in UNJ, and I’m in my very happy time, I feel that my body not good as before. My backbone is often feel the pain, the pain that can not be described. Then I often hard to breathe. My leg is hurt too and I can not walk for a long time. That time my parent stayed outside Jakarta for some business and my sis and my bro was busy. So, one day I cry to my sis and bro because I can’t stand the pain anymore. My sis decided take me to some chiropractic and in short explanation I took the therapy because my scoliosis already at 58 degree. I took 3 session that make me must come everyday for 6 months to Senayan. Monday to Saturday. Can you imagine?

I thank God I have the best family ever, the therapy is so expensive but they didn’t complain much that time.. They encourage me everday and always look forward to my progress. But I have a older sister, that always remember me to take the therapy seriously.
I start therapy in my 4th semester in UNJ, I always go to Senayan by transjakarta every day on 3 p.m.
I skipped so many classes that time, I can not hang out with my friend, can not join the serving time with my partner in chirstian organization (even just for Friday service, I can not come because I can not handle the pain if I must sit in the floor). My time is full with therapy and exercise in home. Thank God my therapy session always fun, I met many younger friends and being called “kak maya” and we laughed everday!  But one thing that made me happy that I always go home with my sis after therapy, and I often wait at her office and get many food nyahaha. But the amazing thing is I finally see God’s beautiful plan to put me in UNJ.

If God didn’t put me in UNJ, maybe it will be more hard to take therapy outside Jakarta, and maybe I must take some break to therapy. But lets see, I have the great lecturer, that already know if I came up to them in a middle of their lecturing, they will said “Therapy again? Okey take care and get well soon.” Or “be patient you will get better soon, Maya”. Even I still got a good grade in that time, thank God for make my lecturer understand the situation. UNJ may not big as the other campus, but I have great lecturers that know and understand their student well. My classmate is supporting too, in that time many tasks that must completed by group and everytime I got group task, they divided fairly and understand my situation. Especially Dita, Indri, Ziah, Bani, thank you for everything in that time sis.

When I start my therapy, I told my coordinator in Christian organization not to tell everyone about my scoliosis. But because I already “missing” for a while and I upload some of my therapy picture in media social, finally all of my friends know. All the prayer and all the encouragement that time really mean a lot. Thank you putri, bang anes, bang anwar, kak jojor, mg, lele, cella, febri, venny, and all rombongan FE dan ptk. That time show me who the true friend is.  Especially my partner, they never complain about me that never help and join the meeting. Thank God, I may not experience this great friendship if I didn’t enter UNJ.

Beside that because of my scoliosis, I learn not to be ashamed because of my lack. In the past time if someone asked me about my scoliosis, I get teary up. But now in a proud way I show them my backbone “this is scoliosis, I’m not straight like you. I must sit in the chair and have a backrest.” “I know I’m not walk straight, but this is every scoliosis fighter been through”. Or sometimes I encourage other friends to be strong, I often made some joke like, “I know that’s hard, but at least you have a straight backbone to face the prolem. So cheer up!”
 In the past time I ashamed to use some of clothes that show my sticking out backbone, but now? So what? everyone already know and if they don’t know just tell them, its easy. Even, I can tell my scoliosis to the person that I meet for the first time. They must see the beauty of God in every situation.
 If I get some pity look, I choose to say “hahahaha please. I’m okay”, even my Anak Kelompok Kecil, what is called, hmm my junior that I teach about God, told me “Kak, how can you always happy and grateful in this situation?” and I just can said, “Why must I sad about? I’m okay and God is good!”

Now I only took therapy once in a month. I still struggling to the best recovery and the pain that randomly come. But I just need to take some time to look and back see God’s beautiful work in me and face the problem again.
God did His best plan for me. What an awesome God. He support me in every word that I read in Bible, He encourage me with all people around me, He made me strong in every prayer and tear that time, He made me simply trust Him when I don’t understand why must me in this situation. I never regret about this situation, and hopefully God always use me to tell His goodness.

“Suka duka dipakai-Nya untuk kebaikanku” – Kidung Jemaat 408